Referrals came out for the people who were logged in by September 22, 2005.  That is a full 10 months BEFORE my log in.  So who knows how long the wait will become.  I hear that it may take several months of referrals to get through the month of November 2005.

 

The CCAA has finished the review of the adoption application documents registered with our office before January 31, 2006. The CCAA has finished the placement of children for the families whose adoption application documents were registered with our office before September 27, 2005.

 

This is where I say "God is in control?"  Somedays I believe it more than others.  It is so gut retching to have this roller coster of emotions.  I have been on my journey to Maggie for over a year now and it may well be another one before I even get her referral.  (Side note:  a referral is when China has matched me with a child and sends a couple of pictures of her.  At that time I will wait to get a consulate appointment and travel anywhere from 2 weeks to 1 months to go get her. 

 

I am pacing myself with her nursery.  I haven't painted yet but do have the paint and most of her goodies.  I am waiting on purchasing her furniture and trying to get the best deal I can.  Those of you who know me know that I am a researcher and will spend a LOT of time finding the best crib at the best price.  I don't want to skimp on her crib because I will be getting a lifetime convertible one that will be a crib, toddler and then a full size bed all wrapped up into one.  The other furniture, I may get at unfinished furniture and paint it myself.  I love doing stuff like that.

 

I also will be starting her lifebook and her scrapbook.  The difference:  the lifebook is for Maggie and will always be modified to fit her age and what she can understand.  It is about her life and how I we became a forever family.  Her scrapbook will be her baby book and adoption journal.  I look forward to doing these books but am a little nervous to start.  What if something happens?  What if China decides to place their restrictions on current dossiers?

 

I truly believe that China will NOT go back as they have stated that I am grandfathered in but I just get a little scared knowing that they can do what they want to do!

 

Sorry for the downer of a message but as you can probably tell I am a little frustrated with the speed of the process and just needed to vent.

 

I do love my heavenly Father and DO trust him completely.  Without HIM, I would not be doing this process.  He has guided my through this process opening doors left and right so I feel that I am fully following the path that He has for me.  Sometimes just that little devil sits on my shoulder and whispers doubt into my ears and for some reason I begin to listen.  Enough of that!

 

I hope that all of you are having a blessed 2007.  This is going to be an awesome year!

 

In HIS love,

 

Tricia